Sad to say but in about a week or so I will be heading back off to school. Well, who am I kidding? I'm not going "off" but I will be starting back. So, I wanted to go ahead and do my summer reflection now so that when I get even busier I will have done it still. LoL. Anyways. This summer has been crazy. I figured starting the summer that it would be alot different. I would'nt have that spiritual high like I did at camp those many years past. Well, I did have a spiritual high this summer. The Lord used a sin to get my attention. I will not share specifics because I am still so ashamed and you don't need specifics anyway. Just know that something I did God used in such a marvelous way that I did grow. Now, trick is keeping it up which I have slipped but I know he forgives me and I'm hoping to stay strong enough to do my part hoping my relationship with him will be stronger than ever by the end of first semester. In other words, New Years. I want my new years resolution this year to be, not necessarily to grow (which it will and should always be), but to stay strong. I'm tired of sinking down to the lowest of lows and then making a false resolution to grow. I want to be strong and become stronger instead of a sudden strong and then a sink. IDK if that makes sense and IDK what that has to do with summer. HaHa. Anyways. I have struggled and grown and learned all summer long. Healthwise I dealt with cyst which are still a problem but hopefully all will be ok. Grown as far as spiritual but am starting to slip so hopefully I can halt the slipping and get back to the growing. And learned as far as my job situation. It's been crazy so far financially this summer. My job has been no help and I'm farther away from buying a car than I was last summer. Mostly because I am indeed paying for my own college with a small monthly assistance from my father. It's not enough though, especially when your working 14 hrs a week when you could be pulling 40 hrs. But it's all good. It gave me the push I needed to get my name out to other companies and stores and even the registers..haha. So summer is ending but I want to leave on a positive note. I am trying to grow- PBC is calling. Chapels and multiple more opportunities to hear his word and learn more about Him. I am determined to become what He wants. It's gonna be hard, but I know if I strive to do my part He'll do his and help me. I'll miss the summer, but I look forward to what's ahead in a few wks although it does me, PAPERS!! haha.
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